Life Changes

Life in the State of Mania

 Have you ever been in a situation that you knew wasn’t right, but you were so afraid of what would come, if you actually did something about it?, like my in last post “Cause and Effect“.  With that said a change is “Blowing in the wind”, and — I — can — sense — it. The time is nearing, but what I know too is that these changes are going to be hard, in many ways. I may not be able to go through with them, and that is scary. While looking back over my history I can find many times that I should have went in a different direction with my life (Hindsight is 20/20), but for one reason or another I didn’t, and those choices led me to here, and now. But those choices that I eluded from then continue to re-surface in some way, even if in small ways. The questions now, are very similar to questions of the past, and the answers that I am afraid to choose are the same ones that I escape Hard Choices 4from using before. Funny… how with age the choices I internalized didn’t change, but the consequences now seem even more direr than they did.

With less time now to recover from the inevitable effect of the cause, it almost seems as if at this point in life that I should just leave things as they are.

“I made the bed, now lie in it”. 


Life in the State of Mania

It is not exclusive. Exclusivity is not the love of God but the “love” of ego. However, the intensity with which true love is felt can vary. There may be one person who reflects your love back to you more clearly and more intensely than others, and if that person feels the same toward you, it can be said that you are in a love relationship with him or her. The bond that connects you with that person is the same bond that connects you with the person sitting next to you on a bus, or with a bird, a tree, a flower. Only the degree of intensity with which it is felt differs.”